And you will know the truth, and the truth will make you free. John 8:32

Friday, July 10, 2009

Alone in the House with Ice Cream and Rhubarb Bars

The kids are all gone at backpacking camps, and I’m alone in the house with a carton of Blue Bunny cookie dough ice cream and a Tupperware container filled with rhubarb cheesecake bars.

Not only that, I still have an hour and a half of writing to do for the day and a decision to make that I don’t really want to make—both of which make me feel like eating. Not to mention the fact that it’s late afternoon, that magical time of day when the things in the freezer often call out to us.

But I’m not listening. Let me take that back—I was listening, but not anymore. Why am I not listening? Because I decided to truth journal about it (before I actually ate anything, for a change), and I no longer feel like eating.

This is what I wrote:

Beliefs: 1. Some ice cream would be good right now. 2. I deserve it after such a hard day. 3. And since I still have more than an hour of writing to do.

Truths: 1. It would be good for about FIVE MINUTES!!! After that it would make me feel bloated, uncomfortable, crummy when I wake up tomorrow morning, and weigh more than I want to weigh. Is that all worth five minutes of enjoyment? (I actually capitalized the five minutes again in my journal, but I’ll spare you that.) No, the answer is no. 2. Some days will go like this. If possible I need to devote my mornings to writing, so I don’t have any left by afternoon. But when I think of the collective suffering in the world, I’m one of the lucky ones. 3. That hour of writing is an opportunity for me to share in the sufferings of Christ(ouch).

Then I truth journaled about the decision, since that was another thing that was making me want to eat. And you know what? I didn’t feel like eating anymore by the time I was through.

There’s two things I think are really important to keep from giving in to emotional eating.

They are:

1. Start working on your emotions. If you only journal about the food, you'll be in danger of turning to some other bad habit to escape your emotions. If you learn to go to God for your emotions, you'll see things from His point of view and the negative emotions themselves will go away. Journaling about both the writing and the decision today gave me peace about both of those.

2. Make a commitment to journal or pray Scripture before you eat outside your boundaries – even if you’re already planning to eat. Just say to yourself, “That’s okay – I can still have the bowl of ice cream (or whatever), I just need to renew my mind first." More often than not your desires will change, but if they don’t you have nothing to lose. You can go ahead and eat what you were planning to eat.

Why don’t you give this a try and see how it goes? I actually got interrupted while I was writing this so it’s been a couple of hours since I was tempted by the ice cream. And I still haven’t felt like eating anything. I’m not using will power to avoid eating – I just don’t feel like it anymore. Because I’m believing the truth. But I wouldn’t have believed it if I hadn’t taken the time to find it.


Unknown said...

Oh Barb, oh how I relate to everything you just wrote! And Rhubarb anything is my favorite! It brings back memories of childhood, good ones, of mom cooking it on the stove with sugar. A great summer treat. Oh yeah, this isn't about what our favorite foods are! ha ha. The afternoons are my hardest times to try not to eat. I like the idea of truth journaling before I eat, when I think I deserve something, or jif I am bored. Your blog hit home with me. I will try that this week, everyday, and see if it helps to renew my mind. Thanks again. Kathy (it will probably come up anonymous).

eliz said...

Hi! Barb,
I think this is one of the most amazing things that I discovered as I rid myself of the lies and replaced them with truth. I'm just not interested in food like I was.

A huge test for me was my vacation of 2 weeks up north at the lake. Vacation there always meant SNACKS!!! The snacks started around lunch time and went on until as late as 1 a.m. I baked cookie bars at least every other day and we drank cappucinos with store bought treats. This was for 19 years!!! So I was a little worried about the fight that I was going to face while there.

What a surprise I got. Even though I had taken my 2008 taxes to do, (which always sets me up for emotional eating) I had no desire to eat emotionally!! The entire 2 weeks I couldn't even think of anything that I would "want" to eat emotionally or buy to eat!! I ate when I was hungry and I kept my boundaries. The only problem I had was that I had not brought enough food for myself to eat when I really was hungry!! LOL!!

Our refridg up there is stored in a garage one acre away from our 5th wheel. So at 2 a.m. while doing taxes I was hungry! But there was no way I was going out in the pouring rain to get a few left overs!! Normally I would have had a can of soup in the trailer or some edible item!! LOL!! But no! Now I only had a few fruit snacks and cappucino mix!! Yuck! That is not food for hunger!

God has blessed my efforts more than I had even hoped for. I am no longer an emotional eater Praise God!! And I'm losing weight.

My weakness right now is the feeling that I should eat something rather than throw it out. Example- There is 2 cups of Wild rice left over, but I only need to eat 1 cup to be satisfied. I ate the 2 cups! One step at a time! :o)

Unknown said...

Wow, Elizabeth - that is so incredible - I'm praising God with you.